My Life As A Middle Child - Putting Together The Pieces: May 2005

It's a Tuesday, that's a Monday

Let me start by saying Today Really Sucked.
BPT mentioned on Friday that we needed to come in early today for an update. I asked how early she wanted me in and she said by 7. Then in the same sentence, she said never mind we wouldn't need to update each station. Well, I knew better than to not be there by 7, so I was. She really didn't need me, but that was ok as I was able to get some paperwork done.
Since we weren't going to have to run around doing the update to each station, I wore a pair of the new shoes I bought this weekend... Heels. Can you guess what happened? Yup, I got a call from BPT while I am in a session and she wants to know how long I am going to be as we need to run the update on each station. I spent most of the AM and part of the PM hopping from cube to cube as the process requires 2 reboots, so to save time, I tried to have at least 3 to 4 stations going at all times.
As if it wasn't enough that my feet were killing me and I may never be able to wear my beautiful new shoes again without remembering the pain... the new guy mentions that tomorrow must be month end and when I replied no, that it was today, however, the IT side of it is done tomorrow he says ok that makes sense as BPT sent him an email with directions on how to do month end and wants to show him tomorrow. She has NEVER shown me or given me the directions and I have worked on the system for 15+ years, he had never even heard of the system before last week and doesn't even know how to log into it. I think she is still pissed about everyone pushing her to give me a promotion. Not to mention that Marebear sent an email to a co-worker, MOB, BPT and myself and in it mentioned that she was only able to get the job needed done, as I went in over the weekend and rebooted her machine. BPT does not like anyone to get praise so and she told Marebear that she wouldn't be near the office and it would have to wait till Tues. Score one for Marebear!!!
Good news though... in my quest to update stations, I found two that were not running properly and was able to play Spy Queen this afternoon. YEAH, something fun to do!!! Also, the new guy says he thinks he can get me a McAfee AntiVirus boot disk this week so that I can get Lucy's computer fixed. More fun and excitement to come if he is able to do this for me.
Sorry for the ramblings, but the only person who understands what it is like, wasn't available when I called her tonight. Marebear, I hope all is going well with your move and that your baby is doing better.

Tell I blog again... Good Reading and Good Night!

And the final score is...

Last night I was rambling on in my tired state about if I have good or bad luck. Well, I have taken a look back over the past 10 days and here is what I have determined...

Fri - Tough Day at work (-)/Doodlebug was mine for the night (+) = 0
Sat - Visited Marebear and went to fav restaurant (+)/Had flying wood coming at me (-) = 0
Sun - Dinner took forever and was cold (-)/mgmt replaced dinner and was free (+) = 0
Mon - Had to take car back to shop on lunch (they made me come in, to tell me they had subletted that part of the work out and that I would need to take it elsewhere... apparently, this type of discussion couldn't be handled when I was on the phone with them (-)/BPT told me that someone had been hired for job and no advancement for me (-) = Negative Day
Tue - Talking on phone and almost stepped on a dead baby bird that was on my back deck. (My heart started pounding and I couldn't breathe for several minutes) UGH! (-) = Negative Day
Wed - Pedicure & Manicure (+)/Dinner out, Margarita was so strong, that I got a buzz from 1 drink (+) = Major Positive Day
Thur - Wents to Girls Night Out with all my great friends and Doodlebug (+) = Another Great Positive Day. (Hey watch out, I'm on a roll now.)
Fri - Shopping at lunch, found 2 outfits and they were on sale (+), Had to report the coworkers problem was ineffiency, not training (-)/Ran into same coworker while talking to her mgr about her and again after leaving human resources about her (-) = Negative Wins
Sat - Shopping all day with Mom & Sis (+)/Couldn't find any clothes or shoes for me (-)/Found shoes for Doodlebug (+)/Thought I was home alone and walked downstairs not knowing DH had come home early (My heart had just stopped pounding from the bird thing and is now in my throat again) (-)/Spat with Doodlebug's Mom (-)/Got my way (for the most part) (+) = 0
Sun - Shopping all day with Sis (+)/Found Shoes (+)/Couldn't get pictures of Doodlebug to download onto blog (-)/Shopped on EBay and was able to win 2 items (+) = Positive Wins
Mon - Had to exchange items at the mall (-)/DH went with me (+)/Dinner out with DH, server was rude, the sizzling Fajitas were not sizzling and I requested no sour cream, but was served sour cream (anyone who knows me knows that I do not do sour cream, nor will I eat anything that has touched the sour cream) (-) = Negative Wins

and the final score is:
4 Days that were a combination of good and bad
4 Days that were bad
3 Days that were good.

Apparently, I really just don't have any luck. What I need to do is quit work, have no expectations about eating out, spend more time with my family, friends and Doodlebug, drink more, pamper myself more and and buy more shoes. Hmmm see a pattern here... if only it were all about me, then the days would all be positive. Well now that you have had the condensed version of my entire last 10 days, you know what to expect next week, more of the same. (except the shopping as I am now broke... maybe I'll just replace the shopping with more drinking. HA HA HA)

Hope everyone had a good holiday and welcome back to the daily grind tomorrow.

Do I have Good Luck or Bad Luck???

I haven't posted lately as I have been very busy, so I will try and get in as much as I can. However, I am really tired tonight as I have been shopping like a maniac the past few days for Doodlebug and myself. I went Friday at lunch with my boss, Saturday with my Mom and Little Sis and then again today with my Little Sis. We have been finding a lot of great bargains and really enjoying ourselves. Anyone who knows me is aware of my great lust for shoes... will I have decided to carry on the tradition with Doodlebug. At 4 months old, she is now the proud owner of 6 pairs of shoes!

Also, Doodlebug's Mom and I had a bit of a spat yesterday. We normally get her on Fri night and take her back on Sat evening. As the teenager was out of town, it was changed on me and I was to get her at noon on Sat and keep her until Sun evening. Then the teenager tells me that as he was still out of town, the g/f wasn't going to let me have her until 8PM. I was not a happy camper and called her. She actually had the nerve to bump me twice on her cell phone and then when I reached her at home lied to me and told me her phone was on vibrate and she never heard it ring. PLEASE!!!! Anyway, I gave her a piece of my mind about the whole thing as I am tired of doing everything around her schedule with her family. I ended up getting the Princess at 4:30 PM. Score 1 for KGrams!!! Also, I spoke with g/f's mom today and she apologized that I didn't get her as early as I should have, she made plans as they didn't tell her they changed me from Fri to Sat. UGH!!! Anyway, I did get her and we had a fantastic time as always.

Work last week wasn't too bad, just busy. The new guy started, he is really nice and very good at explaining things to me as I never can just accept an answer, I always have to know why. (It used to drive the prior guy nuts as I wouldn't just take his word for everything... in looking back, I think the reason it bothered him was that he didn't always know the answer, but didn't want to admit it) Anyway, I really like the new guy, however, BPT is really being fake around him. It makes me want to gag! I know the act won't last long and pretty soon BPT's true self will show. She is going to eat him alive... I feel sorry for him as I know it is going to happen sooner or later and he is not going to have a clue.

I do have one part of my job that I really don't like. I was called about someone's performance and asked if I could work with them and see if they are having issues due to lack of system knowledge or just inability to do the work. I spent 1 1/2 hours with the person reviewing everything. I reported back their boss and even had to meet with human resources. I hate knowing that someone is probably going to be let go.

My father used to tell me that if it wasn't for bad luck, I wouldn't have any luck at all. I tend to agree with him on this. Taken the recent events with my veh and other dramatic things in my life... or do I really have good luck as none of the things were catastrophic and could have been worse and so I was spared some? It has always made me wonder. Now, I think it is truly bad luck as I even have issues with fortune cookies. DH and I ordered in Chinese the other night and my fortune cookie actually had a typo. "A liar is not believed even if hells the truth." My thought on this fortune is that it is regarding my current work situation with BPT. Could I really never get the chance to advance and nothing is going to change... due to a space and the letter T. I will be happy to buy the letter T. No wait a minute, you can only buy vowels. Can I have a spin... where's the wheel when you need it?

Marebear, thanks for the phone call last week and for your help with my posting. I hope your DH was able to reach you. Also, if you get bored, I still have Lucy's computer... I need to find a download to create a boot disk that will scan for virus. Katydid, I haven't heard from you... trying to reach you re lessons for your daughter.

Good Night all and have a great holiday.

It's a Full Moon, and I'm not scared...

What does it say about me that on the day of the full moon, that I have actually had my best day in the few weeks? Am I so unlucky that everyone else's bad days are my good days? I was really dreading this week as our department of 4 has been reduced to 2, me and the boss. Then I found out today, that both positions have been filled and one of them is even starting tomorrow, YIPPEE!!!

Last night, DH and I went to dinner. It took forever to get our food and when it came, it was really cold. I don't normally complain (I am always afraid of them spitting in my food if I send it back), but the server asked how it was and between the cold food, the long wait and the fact that she hadn't smiled the entire time we were there, I was fed up and actually told her our food was cold. She apologized and offered to take it back and nuke it in the microwave. I declined this offer as 1) microwave fried chicken - yuk. 2) the spitting thing. The mgr came over, apologized and told us he was having our dinner recooked at that very moment. 5 minutes later, we had hot food (I felt safe eating it, as our server didn't bring it out). The mgr then walked by, made sure everything was ok and he even took the bill as the meal was on them for the poor service. Yes, there is justice in this world. Would I ever do this again? Probably not... again back to the spitting thing and I think it was just my lucky night as it was almost a full moon. Sidenote: DH was in the bathroom a lot last night... hmmm, maybe his plate wasn't safe after all. (Marebear, I hope you had a good laugh on this one... should I have warned you to use the bathroom before you read it?)

I am very upset with the teenager and g/f. They had Doodlebug's ears pierced yesterday. I think she is way too young for this. I can give my opinion, but I really don't get a say in it. Sometimes it is very tough to stand on the sidelines. I just hope she doesn't have any problems with them as I would hate to see her in any pain. On a good note though, we bought her a walker this weekend. Pictures will be taken and sent to all the usual parties.

I will write again later and just maybe my luck will hold out.

Let the fun begin

The weekend is almost over and tomorrow the fun begins. Don't get me wrong, I love my job and the company I work for is great, it's just the normal office politics and it would be nice if they could just make a decision and stick to it.
I was taking a shower earlier and my mind was actually blank (I normally do some of my best thinking in the shower... am I one of the world's great eccentric geniuses or just have way to much going on in my brain?) when I went to shave my legs, a co-worker's comment popped into my mind and made me laugh hysterically. The other day I was commenting on her outfit and how nice she looked when she suddenly blurts out "Oh My God, I forgot to shave my legs". While this comment is not normally funny, the expression and inflection was as if it was some world crisis. I just want to say to my friend... Thanks for the laugh!

Doodlebug and I went to visit Marebear yesterday. The visit was great, one of our favs for lunch and then we got to be spy queens. However, I have to tell you about the trip. I am going up a major 2 lane street when several car lengths ahead of me is a dilapidated truck with a ton of junk on the back of it. I wanted to get over due to the truck and the guy in the next lane would not let me over (and they wonder why people get road rage). When all of a sudden, this huge piece of plywood comes flying off the back of this truck and is headed for my vehicle like a missile. I slammed on the brakes, swerved and managed to miss getting hit by the wood (Apparently I'm an even better driver than I give myself credit for. LOL) I thought that's it, I am going to give this guy a piece of my mind (My veh has not had the best of luck in the past 2 months) . When I got up to the truck, there were no plates, the name on the side had been marked out with black paint and there were 3 not so nice looking guys in it. By the time I realized all of this, I was already next to them and glaring that you've really pissed me off look. When they turned to look at me glaring at them, I suddenly smiled, looked ahead and acted as if nothing had happened. Score 1 for the bad guys. But at least I'm still alive.

I wondered last week if it was a full moon week. I was close, tomorrow is a full moon. If I was questioning it last week, what is in store for me this week? Should I stay home in bed or face it head on? I guess I will face the challenges head on, as they say... That which does not kill you, makes you stronger. By this time in my life, I must be super woman (just without the great body and magic lasso).

I hope everyone had a great weekend and goodbye for now until I write again.

It's the little things that count

I have been having a really tough week and have been confused about what I should do. Today wasn't any better. I have even more support on my side, but still have one big hurdle that is standing strong in resistance. It is making me insane that I have no control (this is my ocd kicking in) and can't say that I have been speaking to others and have their support.

I keep thinking it must be a full moon week or something. I had a similar experience to the story of the other day when someone's computer wouldn't come up because it was unplugged. Well today I received a call that someone computers wouldn't come up... this time the monitors were turned off. (I should get a raise, apparently this is rocket science!)

I had so much that I wanted to rant and rave about tonight, but I just can't. Right now I have Doodlebug in my arms (yes, it is very difficult to type) and she is falling asleep while listening to her lullaby music and holding onto me... THIS IS WHAT IT IS ALL ABOUT!!! My problems don't seem to be such a big deal any longer and they are actually leaving my mind as I hold her. About an hour ago, DH had her in his lap and was talking and playing with her. She was laughing harder than I have ever seen her laugh in the 4 months of her life. It brings joy to my heart to see him so happy playing with her. I think back to a few years ago when we couldn't have a child of our own and I know we are truly blessed to have her in our lives even if it is only part time as grandparents.

I read something the other day that really rings true... Grandchildren are God's gift to us for letting our children live.

So I will end tonight with happy thoughts in my head and heart and know that all things happen for a reason and what is meant to be will happen, just maybe not at the time you thought it should. : )

When did life get to be so hard?

I remember when I was young that I always wanted to be an adult. I was told not to wish my life away as I would be an adult soon enough. But what they didn't tell me was that being an adult is not always so easy. Talk about pressure... you have to make a lot of tough decisions about things that can effect you for a very long time.

Remember the other day when I said I was Dazed and Confused? Well that was nothing compared to this week.

Someone I consider to be a very good friend is leaving work tomorrow. I have only worked with her for a year now, but we are very much alike in many ways that I feel like I have known her forever. She is relocating and I know it is best for her, but just sitting here typing this, I am tearing up already. How are we going to make it through tomorrow... glasses, no makeup and tons of kleenex will definitely be in order. (Marebear, I'm glad you like your charm)

They are looking for a replacement for my friend. I have mentioned to her, MOB & HR that I am interested in expanding my roll by moving up into this position and I have had several meetings with them now, but no one is sure on how to approach BPT about it, as she is not in favor of this. I am not sure exactly why, but everyone says that I am qualified for the job and deserve it and that it is her hang up. They are even going to talk to the top guy tomorrow about it. I really want this move, but if BPT hand is forced, she can make my life miserable and I don't know if it is worth it if that is the case. Also, if she finds out about all of my meetings, and I stay in my current position, she can still make my life miserable. I hate this feeling that I can't talk to her openly and honestly, I never had this with MOB or anyone else I have ever worked for. Do I pursue it or let it go??? If I let it go, will an opportunity like this ever come my way again??

Wow, in reading this, it sounds like it is all about me. I know it isn't, but maybe it should be.

I will say goodnight now, as Doodlebug is leaving and I have to see what Oprah is doing to get Brad and Jen back together. I am mad at Brad right now and I don't know if Jen should take him back, but I guess everyone deserves a second chance.

Until I blog again... Goodbye and Goodnight.

It's just another Manic Monday

Boy do I wish it were still Sunday... but then again, I would have to re-live today all over again and I don't think I would make it though a second time.

I wanted to get to work extra early today as BPT was back and I knew she would be in a mood. I ended up getting to work about 20 minutes early instead of 30 to 45 as I had planned. I busted my behind to get appointments set up and all my ducks in a row for the morning staff meeting and then BPT never showed... go figure. Then my first call of the day was that a computer wouldn't come up, (News flash... they have to be plugged in to work) I knew then that it wasn't going to get any better.

I made it known to MOB & HR that I was interested in advancing. MOB is right on with this, HR is agreeable, but says it is actually BPT's decision. I guess I will keep my fingers crossed, but I am not going to hold my breath as I will turn blue and pass out before a decision is made.

Finally, it came the time to go home, I had to stop at the body shop as there is a film on my windshield from where they just fixed it and they had already closed. Not making me feel any better. Then, I am a block from home when a school bus breaks down right at the intersection. (Did I mention that it's a narrow one way street that I'm on???) I ask you, how much can 1 person take in a day?

Now, DH is home and is really worried about me blogging. What if I write about someone and they find this and figure out it is about them. I explained that names are all changed to protect the innocent and the guilty, but he is still worried. And we thought I was OCD and worried too much!

I think it's time to just say Goodnight!!!

Dazed and Confused

This statement says it all right now. I have so much going on in my mind that I don't know where to start.

First, I have a friend at work that is moving away and I will miss her terribly. I am happy for you Marebear, but sad to see you leaving.

Secondly, I have another friend with relationship problems and I can only listen and I am trying to give advice as I have been there, but it is never easy. I hope this is enough and she knows that I am here whenever she may need me.
Then there is always something going on with DH, the Teenager, the Princess and of course work!!!

I also have this weighing on my mind. I have been getting pedicures and manicures from the same girl for several years (she is the best one at the salon), and I recently started taking my lil sis with me and now my mom.... should I give up my girl for them? I want them to enjoy the experience as much as I do, but I don't want to give her up to them. I need to know, is this being stingy and am I a bad person/or is this ok?

Well it's getting late and I have to be at work early, the BPT will be back tomorrow and you can't be late or even on time on a normal day, so I know I have to be in early tomorrow as she was out severl days last week and will be in one of her moods.

Till tomorrow...

My Life As A Middle Child - Putting Together The Pieces

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

It's a Tuesday, that's a Monday

Monday, May 30, 2005

And the final score is...

Sunday, May 29, 2005

Do I have Good Luck or Bad Luck???

Monday, May 23, 2005

It's a Full Moon, and I'm not scared...

Sunday, May 22, 2005

Let the fun begin

Friday, May 20, 2005

It's the little things that count

Thursday, May 19, 2005

When did life get to be so hard?

Monday, May 16, 2005

It's just another Manic Monday

Sunday, May 15, 2005

Dazed and Confused

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